Rainy Tuesday~

Wow I finally have a moment to myself. My husband the dear guy is working today, as I will be in a few moments. Tons of paperwork to get done.

My hubby was home yesterday, and I insisted that he take me out of the house last night. I was not going to sit in front of the TV again. I just had to go out. So he nicely brought me to his favorite Steak House. This is funny because I don't eat steak. I did have a delicious salad however with grilled chicken, with a side order of yummy big steak fries. It was terrific!

Right after dinner, I said ok... we went to your favorite place now we go to mine. "Lowes"!!! It's so close to my house that you could almost touch it, but I keep putting it off. I really needed to get some bird supplies, and they really have a nice assortment, of feeders, houses, and feed.

When we got there I did like I usually do... drive him nuts asking his opinion about this and that. He was like "Kell I always tell you to come to these places by yourself, it doesn't matter to me". Since they were closing in 10 minutes I settled on a pretty cooper feeder for the time being, till I can steal some time away by myself. The was decision isn't easy because I have squirrels that really like to eat my feeders. I don't mind feeding them, so the one's that keep them out were not up my alley, but I don't want them eating the feeder! So wood was out! The plastic one that I have now is terrible because when the squirrels bite at it, it sounds like someone is breaking into the house. You wouldn't believe how loud it is. I also needed something big enough for the bigger birds that I am trying to keep in my yard (Jays, Cardinals, Mockingbirds, and so on). This temporary one is great because it also has a tray that the bigger birds can sit on. This is what I got for now. A little smaller than I'd like:






This is what I was looking for, but I can't find it even online. It is much easier for the squirrels, and the jays to get jumbo nuts out of. I can't find one anywhere! I guess I'll have to make one.






Today it is rainy so I intend on getting some work done, and also some of the baby blanket that I am working on. I will get pictures up soon. :)

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As I am writing this the squirrel is eating the plastic from the other feeder!

Packet of Pictures~

I really have to get some of my craftiness on this blog. It seems that it is turning more into a personal outlet, and that was not my original intention. Honestly people! Do you think I really want to bore you.

Anyway... my bio Dad died 2 years ago. This was due to Luekemia. I wished that it would have taken his life sooner, because he suffered very bad. He hated the word hospital. Wow you couldn't say that word. He lost much of his sight, speech, and movement all in the last year or so. I tried to visit as much as possible, but I know that it was never enough. My aunt Pat was taking care of him, and would call me now and again to say (basically) get your butt over here. I really didn't like going to his 2nd wife's home. The wife and I somehow managed to get along to help him with his journey, but I always felt uncomfortable. Every time I tried to visit while she was working she would show up. Therefore not having a visit with Dad, but a nosey visit with the wife. My heart still hurts, but I know that my Dad understood why I stayed away much of the time... I am my father's daughter. Many of his traits were genetically transferred into me. After the memorial for my Dad I completely severed all ties. A little more than a year passed, and then my Aunt Pat who lived with them died. I never went to her memorial, and I am sure that she understood as well. Family genetics is a bitch, isn't it? Especially when you are born stubborn, and Irish to boot.

I tried to contact my cousins on a few occasions with no success. My only request was pictures that were promised to me. I never got a response. I suppose they were mad at me for not coming to their Mom's memorial. I totally understand. Finally the other day I get a big package in the mail. It was all of my baby photos, and photos of when my parents were married. Pictures of my Grandma, and Grandpa. Happy Christmas times as well with aluminum trees. It hurt... I cried... I can now go on.

I know that I have no extended family, but they are not the only one's to blame... Stupid Irish blood!

Bad blogger I am!

Ok, so you may have seen a trend with me lately. I have been trying to be a good blogger, and let you in to see a bit of my life. There I go slipping up, and not blogging! Bad Kitty! Bad!....

There was a song that I had in my head for most of the weekend by Evanescence. It made me cry because it was saying everything that I've felt lately. I know I've been quite emotional lately, and most of the time I don't admit that. A bit of PMS, and a bit of reality I guess. Wow thats a title~ It just seems like everything that I placed on my platter is falling off.

Pete, and I went to Keansburg over the weekend. I've been going since I was a kid because it's just something you do in Jersey, besides the Seaside Heights experience. Every year I go mainly just to check it out, and run to the car. I have to admit that Keansburg was getting a little scarey. Then there was a fire, and now people are trying to change it for the better. Slowly... very slowly it is happening. It's has some big rides, lots of kiddy rides, and some wheels to play with dumb prizes. I brought my daughter when she was little as well. She loved it. I remember going on the same rides isn't that funny?

That night we didn't play the wheels or anything. I never do anymore. I got a zeppoli, and played the shooting game. You know the one where you shoot the objects around in the enclosed area. It's more like a lazor rifle. My husband laughs whenever he insists we play, because I know how to shoot. I beat him all the time. We go shot for shot, and I'm not the girly girl that will let the guy win. No way! We stopped after that to watch a few kids having fun now and again, and then we decided to go check out the boats docked at the Marina in the Atlantic Highlands. It's a pretty close drive from Keansburg.

When I got back to my car I found a nice little ticket on it. Apparently you now have to walk over to a machine which I didn't see, and pay for a paper ticket to put on your windshield. Odd that I didn't see that, or a sign when I was coming in. I did see lots of tickets on other vehicles however. Needless to say I was very pissed off. There should have been more signs posted. I will pay it without question. I figure it will be my donation to the clean up, but I will enclose a note with my ticket. Even though it will problably go un-noticed, it will make me feel better to write it.

So we went to the Atlantic Highlands Marina, and walked along the docks. We decided long ago that we want to some day own a sailboat, so our focus was mainly on them. They are beautiful, and difficult to figure out... just like me. Just kidding! At the end of one dock there was this huge yacht. It was overwhelming, and yet breath taking. I was trying to imagine the person/people that own it. I haven't seen anything like that docked since visiting Nantucket. There are plenty of them there, and they don't stick out like a sore thumb like this one. In Nantucket they are just another accessory for the rich like jewelry. I always try to get a feel for something, and this yacht that I was staring at was screaming happiness to me. I don't know why, but I was also happy looking at it. I was happy for the lucky owner as well. I don't know why. Perhaps it is because I don't see myself as being an envious person.

I went to Target` yesterday, and bought 15 big plastic boxes that were on sale. I want to get everything out of the basement, and up into the attic. The problem is that the kiddo left most of her shit upstairs, and I have been continuously fighting with her to clean it up. Now I am going to throw most of it away. I can't wait any longer. Most of my stuff is up there already. Now it needs to be painted for the third time since owning this money pit. Atleast I won't have to see purple or electric pink anymore. Give me white, or beige anyday.

Sorry to bore!

Happy Birthday Invisable Brother!

Well I didn't get much done, with the time that I had left with the weekend. I just basically lazed around the house with the hubby, watching movies. I can't seem to get him to sit for a movie, but finally got him to watch one of my favorites "Whale Rider". We watched that in the morning. That night I got him to watch "Ten Things I Hate About You". I just had to see Heath's butt. The whole time I was thinking of things I should have been doing instead. You know GUILT.

The hallway is pretty much completely renovated to the way that I like it. With the exception of some molding work, and some spakle in a few places that were missed. Those are the things I can complete myself. I just don't have the motivation. Then comes the hard part "Decorating". It usually takes me a good three times to get something painted the right color before I like it. Since the hallway is traditional, I would like to keep it that way. I like the old look compared to modern any day. There is just some artsy appeal to it. The color for above the wainscoting is going to be the traditional sage green. While this is not an original choice it soothes my eyes.The wainscoting is going to be a clean beige, as are the risers on the stairs. Ohhh electric is needed as well. I guess that is a biggy. Even though my brother in law said that he could hook the new lights in, without a problem. It became a problem. There were a few other things that he should have done, but now we will have to finish. I guess we should have remembered not to hire family! Well not in this family anyway. Before you leave comments saying that family is cheaper, your wrong. He got paid what any one else would have, or more. Here are some pictures of the hallway believe it or not... lol

(All images are clickable, thanks to a friend)

another:







I have more of the hallway, but I will save them for before and afters.

Here is a picture of the doiley that Stacey gifted to me. It is one of the most beautiful works of art I have ever held in my hands. She is truly gifted. Visit her blog when you get a chance. Talk about thread art! Wow!

(Once again all is clickable!)
















And for today I will leave you with some family photos~

Molly


Betty






Molly & Princess


Dusty


Sorry folks, but Lucky is just a little camera shy. I think it has something to do with him being the only male, in a female dominated home.

Have a great day!

The F Word~ ... and don't go to the beach!

Well Pete hasn't been able to work in this terrible heat. So what do we do... go to the beach with all the other idiots, that you see sweating in the News reports. We figured it had to be better near the waves, and the wind. We were so wrong...

We went to Manasquan (Jersey Shore), last week as reported. We had a fabulous time.This week we fit in Thursday, and Friday. A four day weekend is a treat. How sweet~ We weren't alone this time though. We took my daughter, and her boyfriend along both days. Thursday was hotter than hell. The sand was so hot we were burning our feet. Other people laughed. Ahhh.. beach humor. When we found a spot nearest to the water, we set up everything like usual, working as a team. We first got the umbrella in the sand, positioned the chairs just so. Laid our blanket down in the sun. Then took a seat and looked at the beautiful blue water.. That's when we met the F word. Oh they were small, but wow did they bite! They were Flies! Every where huge Sand flies! Wow there were 20 teaming each one of us. The only relief was to run into the water, and swim with the fishes. Everyone was complaining, but the water was fun to swim in as well. The four of us had a great time, but we had to stay near the water. Snacking was a no no!

That night over Pizza in town, we all decided to just do it again the following day. Just leave our shit in the trunk, just get some fresh towels, and go to our spot the next day. We figured it couldn't possibly be as bad.

The beach that we most often hang out at is in Manasquan. No I won't tell you the exact area (they all have names)... unless you ask. It's pretty secluded from the screaming kids, and their parents. Only the cool parents with their little ones hang on our part of the beach. It is not a free beach, so if you have a bad day your screwed money wise. Of course that would be a no brainer, but it sucks so much more.

The first thing that should have tipped us off was the badge seller. We joked, and told her to let us in for free since the previous day sucked. She looked at the four of us and laughed. She said listen... I'll let you go by without admission, because the simple fact that you are in for a worse day of torturing yourselves is funny. Let me tell you we were scared! LOL We started getting attacked on the way to finding a spot. It wasn't tough because no one was really there. It was horrible for everyone in our group but me. See... I decided the night before to make sure I wore my bikini bottoms. I always wear a short sleeved light weight shirt over them, of course with my comfy bra. Nothing seems to hold the bad boys up like my Bali bras. Anyway even though my husband had bug repellent this time it didn't help. Needless to say the bikini bottom came in handy right away, because I swam for 4 hours straight. I only stopped for water, and an occasional sunscreen break... which occured at the water line anyway.

Today is now Saturday. I will not go near the beach until I hear a wind advisory stating that the frigging FLIES are out to sea! There is something about the west wind carrying them in on the beach, therefore we were attacked. We made a bunch of friends with the regulars we always see, and no one has ever seen it this bad. Please stay away! Looking at the traffic heading down there Friday night was making us laugh really hard in the car.

BTW... on the car ride home. My daughter said "please don't say the F word anymore, I'm in pain". LOL

Summer Daze....

Wow is it hot outside, or what? The heat advisories are now in effect. I just hope that people pay attention to them. Look what is happening in California. Very sad. I'm thinking my elderly neighbor may need a friendly hello, and perhaps a lending hand with store errands. I'll see if I get up the guts to do it. She is a little weird. If I don't see her daughter's car today then I will definetly go over this afternoon.

We went to the beach on Saturday. We were originally going to a hot air balloon festival, but just didn't feel like the long drive with the directions in hand. We wanted to go some place familiar, and just veg out. I think it was the first time that we ever went by ourselves. The traffic was horrible, but we talked the whole way there. We actually learned some new things about eachother. Isn't that funny? I've heard you can learn something new every day about your spouse... now I know it is true.

We first stopped in town to our favorite deli, and had sandwiches in a basket. This deli also makes the best potato salad ever! I call it potato salad ice cream. Pete also got me to try rice pudding for the first time in my life and LOVED it~ I was hogging up all of my his. Wow was it yummy. He said that it usually isn't that good... so don't expect it like that every where. Can I say again rice pudding is YUMMY! I use to think it looked like ... well use your imagination. Looks can be deceiving!

We then proceeded to the beach with our cooler full of bottled water, a towel, a blanket, beach necessities, and an umbrella. Umbrellas, and a high SPF spray are a must have with my fair skin. We had fun talking the whole day long. Pete got me to go in the water, which normally I wouldn't do except to look for shells. I'm more of a pool swimmer. The water has cleaned up a lot at the Jersey Shore, and was very blue and inviting.

We stayed around to collect shells, and watch the surfers. It was a very relaxing day. Usually I bring a book, yarn, and my camera. This time I didn't because we didn't have extra hands to carry the overload. I think I had more fun with just the two of us. It felt like we were dating. We left the beach around 6:30, and after cleaning ourselves up we went for dinner in town. A great ending to a perfect day. Although I would have liked more of that rice pudding! LOL

I am currently crocheting some cozies for my daughter's Nintendo ds, as well as some tiny doilies. Don't ask about pictures anymore. When you see them, you'll know I've cooperated with the blog laws of show & tell. Till next time... hugs to all that have been kind to me.

Sign on to Lynlee's forum Peace Craft ~

Bullies~

This was updated, due to spelling errors, and ramble. Sorry still rambling.

Bullies - This pertains to any of you assholes out there. Young & old alike.

I will try and explain what it felt like to be me as a kid, and my expertise with the bully dept. When all is said here that is the last I will speak of it on here ever. I have better things to do with my life.
(and please don't shed a thought that I am looking for sympathy, I'm not)

We moved around from city to city when I was a kid, and I never made good friends. We even went so far as another state. Georgia. I think that is the only place I loved. Things just didn't work out there either for the grown ups.

My mother couldn't figure out what she wanted in life. So life was very hard for my brother, and myself. While she searched for a mate who would just *love* to settle down with two half grown kids, we were constantly being put in new schools (I think 10). We didn't have a choice. We didn't wear the nice clothes that the other kids wore. Nah... we wore what we were told to wear, and it usually came out of a bin.We never fit in anywhere without a lot of wit, personality, or ass kissing. Usually that didn't work for very long, there was always somebody waiting to hurt your feelings because you weren't as good as they were. The rejection sucked so bad, that I can still feel it today just like it was yesterday. It's in my bones, and I am defensive because of it.

I don't trust very easy either. I'm sure many of you have gone through this very same thing. I'm sure it isn't a new sob story. I don't want it to appear that way either. Don't ever feel sorry for me. This isn't that type of blog post. I may come off cold, but that is why I am explaining why. I don't want sympathy. Never did like the stuff.

Needless to say to those that can relate is that, my brother and I were bullied. We were bullied on the way to school, we were bullied in school, we were bullied at lunch time and we were bullied on the way home from school. Home was always our safe little haven to close the door, and lock ourselves away. We were better known as what some would call latch key kids. My mom had to work to feed us after all. You have to respect a Mom for that.

Don't get me wrong we had a lot of fun, and got into a lot of innocent kid trouble together in those days. We had crafty minds even then. We knew that we needed to use our energy for something that made us feel better, and forget our dreary day. We would do all sorts of things from building forts, to go carts, to playing board games, beating on one another, or cooking up some bottle caps on the stove. We were the envy of many neighborhood kids that were friendly, with our cool bottle caps.

With the happiness their also was the torment. The bullies were relentless, they always managed to take the happiness away. I would often find myself being scowled at, laughed at, or looked at (in that funny way) by girls that thought they were better. I didn't know any better at that time. Even though I was sometimes very scared I wouldn't show it. Even though I wanted to cry I would never dare do it. At that time in my life I learned a bad thing. Cower, and surrender~ Be scared, and don't fight for yourself. Any happiness that was felt, was always crushed by these mean little human beings that could be really big assholes. They never had anything better to do it seemed. Why didn't their parents bother to raise them to be kind?

I am glad I didn't raise my daughter to be rude, unfriendly, or unkind. I always told her to try and make the new kid at school feel welcome. Explaining how bad I once felt. Another thing I taught her was to never take shit from anyone, and to this day she doesn't. I'm extremely fortunate that I was able to be a full time Mom, unlike my own Mom who needed to work. She worked like a dog in a machine factor making coats for a living.

Now that I am an adult that seems to have changed. I'm not a bully, but I will not tolerate any kind of abuse. I think I learned this valuable lesson sometime around when I turned thirty. I will not, and cannot be abused anymore by anyone (especially invisible people on the internet). I can't even tolerate watching other people being bullied. It's horrifying for me to watch and not do something. I can't explain why, but I can't just do nothing. I nearly went crazy on someone in my family that verbally attacked my sister once. I don't care very much for my sister, but I couldn't allow it to happen. To this very day I do not bother with that person in my family that attacked her. That person is my Sister In Law~ It's been about 9 years now that I haven't spoke to my brother over the situation, because after all it is his wife. I miss him terribly. He is my Irish twin (born a year apart), and I feel as though my heart is not the same without him.

You could say it is a family thing, but I do it for all people. I even make faces at mean people, that treat grocery clerks like dog shit, when they are only doing their job. It usually makes the clerk smile. That's my goal. To make people smile. :) Even though I don't come off that way in words, that is the way I am.

Back to the bullies:

I wasn't going to ever get involved in anything again at DOD, but it happened. The bully has been being good in the closet without me posting. Now they are allowing Liz to take charge. Wrong~ You can't allow people to be hurt in open public like that. Don't tell me your misunderstood. I understand you perfectly as do other's. Owner's of boards shouldn't allow people to gang up on other's, and publicly humiliate them. It is wrong~ Especially when the gang is moderators, because the owner of the board is also one of them (3 bullies). No one is willing to step up for the victim usually, this time her friends did. It is wrong. I let things go with the problems concerning me, and no one stuck up for me because they didn't know me. That is understood. Liz never forgot to watch every move I made, or high five someone after they did it to me. Yeah if you look at the time line of when I had my last online disagreement with someone, she posted in the five grateful things thread right after she ganged up with the person. Her grateful thing was that she loved the person. That's it. No other four things to be grateful for. She just loves being rotten.So I decided to get quiet, and do other things in my life. In the mean time she found fresh meat, and it was some one that was respected, and a person that liked her, knew her, and fought for her. It is wrong on so many levels it isn't funny. It's serious! I was banned, as was Sarah (Kinky) for voicing my opinion. Other's left in disgust on their own! I knew this would happen... I was warned wayyyy ahead of time. I'll admit I didn't know Liz well enough, and thought I could avoid her. I should have made the choice to never go near that board. I recommend that other's don't either. I realize that there will be curiousity. Your all just waiting for it to happen again. Does that really make you a better person than Liz? Trust me... it will happen again.

Oh she loves to make fun of other's off the private DOD board as well, and continuously reminds you that it is sacred not to let anyone know that they are being made fun of. They are pretty defensive over there. If you would like to know if you were a target get in touch with me, I'll let you know.

I would never defend Liz to anyone! Ever! As a matter of fact I never did. I just didn't, and don't like Crochetville's generic "sunshiney day" attitude, and still don't. Also I missed Kari, but now that I know she is a bully (because that is what they titled themselves for a day or so: I'm a bully, I'm a bully too), I have no respect for her now. She never returned the friendship to me anyway. Bullies always travel in packs of two, or more.That best friend of hers will stick it to her... sooner than later.

In my message box was a message from a gamer that I have played cards with in the past. I can't stand forwards unless they are good. When I read the words, I knew they were fitting in this situation. (I have nothing against special needs people, so please don't flame me) It was a count down to things that gamers don't like.

This was #4, and I thought about Liz immediately:

Nobody cares about threats over the internet.
Don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard.
Fighting online is like racing in the Special Olympics; even if you win, you're still retarded.

(Once again this was meant as sarcasm, and I didn't write it, but I realize that it could hurt someone's feelings. Please don't take it that way!)

Good night, and good luck to all that stay on that board. I hope you don't get in the Almighty Liz's path. She just might eat you alive... but then again you might be someone that picked on me in school. In that case you deserve it. hahaha

Remember if she pisses you off... call her Liz! :)

Like it bothers me Liz!

You have been banned for the following reason:You Pissed David Off
Date the ban will be lifted: Never

Put it to bed~

Ok, I'm putting to bed the idea that has been rolling around in my head lately. That idea was to just mosey on my way, and stop my blog completely. I just haven't been having fun with it. Well I ... put that idea to bed. Hence~ the title.

Many people in the blogging community lately, especially the craft community have been quite vicious with comments, critism, and just out right cruelty. No that has not happened on my little slice of the web that I call home. It has been going on at my friends home's. I don't like it. Why can't everyone just get along?

When someone needs to just sit, and type out anything that is coming out of their hearts, and heads it doesn't mean that they need a comment posted. Unless in my case it does come from a person that I consider to be a friend. If I don't know you, please do us both a favor:

1.Read if you wish (you are cordially invited into my home here)
2.Leave a comment if you have some constructive advice
3.Email me if you feel the need, .....or
4.Please get on with your own life, and don't come back~

I am a pretty decent, and easy going person in real life. Unless you piss me off. However I am an even harder person to get along with on the computer. First of all I hardly trust anyone on the computer. So if you get me riled on here I will and do lash out. I am pretty literate which is a handy thing to be on the computer, and pretty much enjoy being left alone unless your intelligent, and friendly. If cornered... well... I'm pretty much like my cats. Don't do it! I do strike back, and pretty harmfully. Hisssssssss

I haven't been very crafty for a while now. I've been trying to clean up the house, and garden. I'm also really itching to get my daughter's old bedroom cleaned up once and for all, and take over the space. Something always seems to get in the way of this happening though. I think that I mentioned once before that it has a magnificent view of NYC from her room (the attic). There really is no better place for inspiration. Besides that fact there is so much room! I really need to spread out with my books, and shit up there. Some place where the husband can't call me a slob. I do have to admit that I did tell him I would share half of the space. We'll soon see about that one. hehehe Actually I'm just joking, he can have whatever space he wants. We just need to disperse of the mess in the house from renovations. It looks as though I have a flea market going on in the dining room. Antique's are strewn everywhere. YIKES...

My daughter celebrated her 22nd birthday on the 8th of July. We had a really nice bbq in the back yard. There was just five of us which made it really nice, and cozy. We bought lots of food, and basically only ate the appetizers. It was all good, cause we had plenty for the next day.

My daughter, and I went out for a shopping excursion 2 days before the big 22. This is a new tradition that we have started in the past few years. This way she gets somethings that she likes. She picked out a ton of cds that she has been dying to get. Then we bumped (should I say she pushed me) into the video game area. Some place I should never be let loose in. Anyway what turned into looking for one thing, wound up with her getting a cute Nintendo DS. We are big Sims freaks (daughter and I), so she needed that game to go along with it of course. Anyway it turned out to be a great shopping trip for her, and a big bill for me. Hey~ you only turn 22 once, and she is my only child by choice. :) Mommy & Daddy loves you Chris.

I definetly will put my seal of approval on the new Nintendo DS. The price can't be beat for this tiny little computer. Yes computer! It's fantastic for adults as well as kids. They have this new game that you can purchase that is supposed to keep your brain working (Brain age). When I pay her's off, I'll be getting my own. Yes... yes... yes... I am a big time gamer myself. At the ripe old age of forty something I love video games. I just treated myself to an old Nintendo game system, because I had tons of games in the basement that I couldn't use. The stupid pins inside my old one got dulled out, and thus it stopped working. Now I can happily say my daughter has game envy of me, and Super Mario! LOL Next I think I will try and find a Genesis, or Colecovision (hope I didn't spell that wrong, but sure that I did). Ebay is one of my closest friends.

As of late I have been getting into my cats health issues, and have been doing it with home remedies. If your cat has an ailment let me know. We are batteling ear mites right now, and we are winning the fight! Yeah! I have been around cats all of my life, and pretty much know everything you could ever want to know. On my list of things to do is write a book about pet care. So... bring on the questions if you have them. Also send me some pics. I'd love to see your fur babies, and perhaps post some pictures.

Just wanted to let old friends, and new know I was still around, and intend on staying that way. Also I just purchased a shitload of glass supplies as well as yarn. So maybe you'll be seeing pictures of both soon.

If your name is mentioned please make a memo:
Yes Karen it is done!
Kenyetta the camera is on its way!
Janet I still love my husband!
Lynlee please email me, I wish that we could have met in person!

Peace out to all, and to all a good night~

Happy 4th!... ummm tomorrow

A shout out to anyone that really reads my blog!! Holla!!

Not much to say lately. I'm just here sometimes, and other times I'm not. Actually that is mentally as well as physically... lol

I'm just not happy lately, don't feel sorry cause I'm not depressed either. I'm just at wits end~

Have a "Happy 4th"! Be careful, and be safe! Don't drink, and drive!!!!!!

Peace out~

I'm still sane... sort of!

I just want Karen to know that I am still plugging away at the Sweet Pea shawl. In fact I am almost done. Thanks for the nudging! LOL The yarn that I used isn't the greatest for this stitch (dtr) so it is taking forever. The yarn is TLC amore, and it sucks to crochet with. Don't sue me big company, just send me some patterns that will work with this yarn. It is pretty but difficult. I think it would be better knitted.

Family is the same. Can't get any help from the assholes that I share DNA with. Just ask me for a kidney you assholes! LOL There has been a lot of fighting lately within my family over the fact that I am doing everything, and the other's are ignoring everything. On top of it is the fact that he has three sons from a previous marriage so that officially makes 6 of us. No kidney is coming out of me. No way! I'm pushing bad luck aside, and officially saying I don't want anything that comes from the DNAs bodies~ Assholes!

On sort of the same note: Mom is feeling much better now. She spoke with Dad's heart Dr. who asked how she was on the phone. She told him about the shingles, and he sent an antibiotic to the house! What a great guy! I'm in love! It is making her much more comfortable, and she is not having any crying jags anymore. Thank God! We actually went shopping the other day, and had so much fun laughing. It was terrific. It made me heart happy. :)

Step Dad on the other hand is trying to kill Mom. I would swear that he is purposely pulling a "feel bad for me act" on her, and anyone willing to listen most of the time. I know he has been very ill, but I noticed that he was very jealous when I was giving my Mom attention when she wasn't feeling well. It was like watching a little kid. I know this happens with age, but she needs attention as well.

I'm done boring you all for now. I know I am starting to get long winded. Going to a BBQ tomorrow. It should be interesting. Hmmm more next time.

I'm having a nervous breakdown!

Ok well... I took Dad (Step Dad) to the Dr. last week, and also for some tests. Thank goodness they are all in the same building. Whew!

The Dr. read his lab work from the visiting nurse, and said that he wanted him in the hospital immediately. I protested that this would take a long time, and I didn't think there was a need when all he needed was some fluids as usual. It takes up to 5 hours to get a bed in our great (rolling eyes) hospital. Anyways the Dr. left the room when Dad said no to getting admitted again. Then he returned, and agreed to let us sit in the office so the treatment could be done there. So we sat for about an hour while he got the fluid IV that he needed, and then we were on our way home. Another whew! I would have been stuck at the hospital with my extremely unsociable Dad for hours. On the way home he wanted to eat deadly food~ Atleast his appetite came back quick.

My mother is another story.

There are three of us kids, in my mother's part of the extended / blended family. With my sister being the shared child of the union. I'm the only one that has been doing anything out of the three. My brother only lives about 1/2 block from me (we don't talk... that's another story), and that is about a mile from their house. My sister moved her selfish ass far enough away so that she would never be on call. She is still only about an hour away. I fought with her during the week about coming down and visiting with them for a day on the weekend. Why do I have to do it all. I know that sounds selfish, but WTF!

My sister was supposed to come down on Sunday, so that I could spend some time with Pete. She left a message on Saturday night that my mother got nasty with her on the phone, and she wasn't going to waste her time. Waste her time?? That is her Daddy!! Like I said WTF??

I don't want to come out like the better person, or shine like a star. I just don't want to go into therapy myself. I've been handeling the late night wants, and needs from ice packs to snacks. I've been doing the grocery shopping. Cat feeding. Garbage disposal. WTF??

Yesterday my daughter went with me to get some groceries for my Mom, after I got reemed out for not being home on Sunday. I got there, and we were chatting with her for about a half an hour, then she shows me these welts / rashes she has on her. My mother thinks she has shingles... Geez couldn't you tell me this shit on the phone?? I practically ran out of the house when she showed me her crotch. Enough is enough!! I need help!!

My husband is fantastic in the support that he gives me, because he knows I am on shakey ground. He listens to all of the shit that I unload on him. I guess that is why he is my best friend. He told me that I should just make sure they are ok by way of phone, and leave the groceries at the door. That's it just leave. When Dad needs to go to the Dr. he can get a cab, till I know what my Mother has.... and no she won't go to a Dr.

I can't jepordize my own health and family as well. Can I? My brother, and sister are leaving this all on me, and it isn't fair at all. My brother I can understand, cause he has three little ones. Wait till I get that little bitch of a sister on the phone though. She is nothing but a spoiled little c..t~ Sorry hate the word, and starting to hate the person attached to it.

Sorry for dumping... if you read the whole thing. I just needed to get it all out.

Happy Friday!

I hope that everyone has a nice weekend! Lots of pools being opened, so lets all be safe... ok?

Gotta take Dad to to the Dr. today. Mom has been pretty sick, and I am trying the best that I can to help them out. The in home / weekly nurse took his blood during the week, and the results didn't look to great. He is really weak, and starting to fall all over the house. He refuses to use his walker, and thus almost fell through the glass coffee table... which should be removed. I'm not sure how I am going to handle taking him to the Dr. by myself, but it has to be done. I don't know why the fuck they make you come in when you are so weak! What happened to home visits??

Hopefully both parents will be ok enough for Pete, and I to be able to sneak away for the day to the beach on Sunday. The way that things look, I'm not so sure. Keeping my fingers crossed cause Pete really needs a break as well. Maybe we'll be nice and bring the kid. She has been working with Daddy all week, and he said she is a terrific house painter, and alot of fun to work with... so maybe we will have someone to hand the business down to in the future. We do gutters & painting if I haven't mentioned it already.

Well I am out of here for now. Going to work on updating the sidebar a little more. I may change the template soon, cause the green is starting to get to me. All depends on how much I get to sneak on here. Can't get online when hubby/Pete is home. He hates computers! Well atleast I have it to myself, so I really shouldn't complain.

Once again as promised I hope to put some pictures up soon. I have a shitload of them on the camera, just have to upload them into the computer is all.

Outta here! Great weekend to all~

Crochet & Gardening!

I'm feeling so much happier now that the sun is struggeling to reappear. The sun feels so good, that I am getting very motivated to do things around the house, and outside.

I am working on the sweetpea shawl still, with the encouragement, and nudging from my friend Karen. It is halfway complete, and is starting to look the way it is supposed to. I just didn't like the way that this starts off so lumpy. I think it is the stitch (dtr). Anyway it will make a nice birthday present for my daughter in July. Also made some of Natalie's econo bags. Very easy, and useful. When I post pictures (I know) you'll see what I mean about them being very useful for anything you carry.

Been doing a lot of garden shopping lately. Now we have to get all of these beauties into the ground in between all the rain.

Ok out of here for now. I'll post more very soon. I know that I am a bad poster!

Monday... Monday!

It was wonderful last weekend. I did talk the hubby into going to my favorite flea market in the world!

It's always a great thing to meet a fellow crafter who is willing to spend some time chatting. I happened across a couple who make these fantastic candle holders. I've seen something similar to what they were selling in magazines, but upon interviewing them I could tell they were the real deal. Always a skeptic I am. He actually blows the glass that hangs into these decorative metal baskets. Very beautiful... I had to buy from these folks because no one was appreciating the handmade items that they were selling. He took time away from his lunch to talk with me, so I said here consider it my treat for the meal.

It really pisses me off that no one appreciates something that is not mass produced! I guess that is the reason that I don't do my stained glass that much anymore. Well actually I haven't cut in a while.

I'm really into crocheting lately, and am working on a few new things. I know that I have to pick up the camera, to actually show some stuff off. I just hate all the editing bullshit that goes along with this.

Step Dad is not in the greatest mood still, but I guess that is to be expected.

I will post more when I feel like I have something interesting to share. Right now I'm going to take a nap with my sweetie cause he came home early today!

Peace out to all~

TGIF

I am soooo glad that Friday is finally here!

Wow I get to cuddle with my hubby Pete for the weekend... well if he doesn't get any urgent calls. We own a painting/gutter business. It's been picking up in the painting area lately which is unusual since it is usually the other way around. He isn't complaining though. As a matter of fact he is hoping for more paint work. I like it because I get to see him more when it rains!

I'm not a Foodie Friday person yet. I just don't like to cook really. I have a lot of recipes, but not sure I want to give away family secrets yet ya know? Hmmm I'll have to think about it though. I mean of course I would give them to my friends, just not the whole friggin blogging community. Next thing I know my fabulous Crumb Cake will be posted everywhere! Next thing I know it will be on the shelves at the local grocery store. Well that would be good, cause then I wouldn't have to make it. Hence no dishes!

I know it isn't like anyone is begging me to join in. I just kinda feel left out. :(

Anyway Dad is home, but not doing well. Today he has to go in and get more blood taken. He just had some taken by the home nurse yesterday, but they are making him huff it over to the office with his walker anyway. Of course my Mom is driving. I didn't mean he was walking all the way. Something about his blood levels is showing that he is dry even though he is filling with water. His feet, and legs are huge. I don't know if the Dr's really know what the fuck they are doing.

I'm trying to clean up the blog a little. If you've been here you'll notice that some links are gone... I'll be posting some new one's as well. If anyone knows how I can make the font in the side bar smaller that would help a great deal, cause the code shit is giving me a headache!

Not much planned for the weekend. Maybe I'll talk Pete into going to the big flea market at Giants Stadium tomorrow. I just love all the stuff I find there... even though I don't need anything... as he always points out when we are there. This time, if we go (hehehe) I'm going to try and lose him for a little while. He always looks at guys shit anyway.

Ok I'm outta here. I solemnly swear to my buds that I will try and post more. I mean I am here all the time anyway answering the phone.

Oh click here if you aren't a self righteous person like this woman apparently is: Donna Lynn's Blog: News from the weekend. If your an asshole you'll agree with her, if not then you are human. Love is love, no matter how you love, and no matter who you love! There will only be one judge on judgment day, and I don't think that hate should work into any sector of the Christian religion. Want to judge? Judge my former religion Roman Catholic~ How do you think God will judge all those priests when they come before the pearly gates?

Donna Lynn, you are truly an asshole!

My blog, my space, my opinion~

Step Dad update!

Well my step-Dad was in the hospital a couple of weeks ago. He had to have a defibrulator put into his chest to help regulate the heart. Afterwards, he found out that he had to carry around a bag with an IV pump in it. The doctor says most likely he will have to carry it for the rest of his life.

He came home feeling really bummed out, and (you know men) very sorry for himself. I really can't blame him, because he is very out going, and this just adds to all of the other complications that he has had with the kidneys etc...

Tuesday night we were once again admitting him into the hospital. Thank God it was a direct admit, and we didn't have to wait for hours in the ER again. His feet were filling with fluid again, and as a result the heart doc felt that this could be the onset for heart failure again.

Yesterday... when visiting I came to find out that his room-mate was an amputee (sp?). 4 times this poor guy had to endure amputations, and he was in such pain. His wife was just the love of his life (you could tell). I had a nice conversation with her, and she told me how this will not effect her husband's mobility in any way. Before this last operation he took a special bus to wherever he needed to go. Dialysis 3 times a week, by himself. He would make sure he visited friends, and joined in with his Mooseclub activities as always. Well ... I wasted no time at all to whisper this to Dad who immediately perked up, and started feeling a little more lucky about life. So he has to carry a bag around. I'm sure we could get him an insulated fanny pack somwhere. Now I just wish he would ease up on my Mom a bit. She is really depressed, and being kinder and more patient than I've ever seen.

*This just in*~~ Just got a phone call from Mom while I was on the computer, that Dad may be coming home tomorrow. Now I just have to keep reminding him how lucky he is!

Today!

I don't know what to title the damn thing!

So how is everyone doing today? Hopefully everyone is in good health, and getting outside. The weather is absolutely beautiful here today, and what did I do... nap... Oh well it was a good nap either way. Now before the husband gets home I have a ton of shit to do. Thank goodness he works late when it is nice out, well when he has a paint job to do anyway.

Last week I had problems with birds being eaten again in my yard. Yes you read right. I like to hang a bird feeder in a little tree, outside of my dining room window. (sounds nice doesn't it? Actually the room is a mess!) Anyways I was having the same problem as last year with ferrel cats going after the doves. It was a really sad thing to find the feathers all over the yard, and it bothered me to the point where I got upset feeding the birds. I mean it was like I was giving the cats the bait. Well last week the same thing happened again. So today I'm laying on the couch being lazy, and napping when I here this weird noise. I said SHIT it's that friggin cat again. Well I run to the side window where two of my cats are perched and looking out the window. I just knew it was going to be a messy fight out there. I peer out as slowly as I can getting ready to bang on the window like a mad woman to scare the cat away (if the bird is ok). What do I see but a big ass turkey strutting and gobbling in my yard under the bird feeder eating the scraps. I was like wait a minute I live in a over populated burb in NJ, and this can't be for real. Now I'm really worried that a cat is going to have a feast with this huge bird, so I call my husband really quick. All the while sneaking out of the house so I can do something with this (for lack of a better word) big bird. My husband was laughing his ass off. After trying to call the bird over he goobled on over to the neighbors yard. Who just happened to be outside. So to be sure I wasn't seeing things I said hey (yeah I'm friendly) did you see that turkey? He was like OMG ... a turkey... a turkey, and then he ran in his house. Real help huh? lol My husband really gave it to me over the phone for not having the batteries in the camera at the time. Rest assured it will be downstairs and ready to go from now on (the procrastinator). I could have sent that to the local newspaper for kicks. Anyway thought I'd share!

They say it's your birthday!!! (Beatles song)

Hi all!
Yes today is my birthday! My wish list is on the side there, so if you want to send me something go on and do it... lol... just kidding... ummm

42 isn't something that really makes me want to jump up, and down, but it is all in the way that you feel & look. I am pretty, so that is something.... lol. Ok you found me in a goofy mood. Why not "they say it's my birthday"!

Sorry I haven't been around all that much the two of you out there that care. :) I love ya's! Been gaming a lot lately, so if you want to play a game look for me in pogo under the name KCatz11. I haven't really been very social lately because in real life I find my self a little overwhelmed of late. I am a bit of a loner to begin with, so even one phone call could push me over the edge... lol Truly, you should ask my family. I get yelled at all the time. My mother knows that it has always been that way, even when I was a child so she doesn't mind all that much. Usually the people closest to me think that I am mad at them. This just isn't the case!

Picked up my hook lately, and started making some bookmarks again. This time I'll save them for Christmas presents. They are getting fancier. My husband is happy to see some of the supplies that lie on the end table in the living room finally going to use. Now if I could just muster up the energy to do the same with my glass supplies in the basement!

I think we are just going out to my favorite local Italian joint for dinner tonight (yummy), and then back to the house for cake. Wish the two of you could be here! :) Thanks for asking about my where abouts, and I promise not to disappear for so long again. Next time pictures!!!

Hey there!

I hope that all the festivities went well, and are going well for everyone. I know just how stressful they can be.

Christmas Eve, went well. We always have it at my house. Other than my mother's usual comments that bring everyone down. It went well.

Christmas day we went to my sister in laws house. It was a mob scene at best. It was a fun day because there was always someone to talk to. Everytime you turned around someone was there. It was very family like, and the day went well.

As you can tell I'm not really into the Christmas holiday season. It just gets me more annoyed than it should. All the worry, and it is over before you know it. Now I am just looking forward to getting the tree down, after New Year Day, and getting on with daily activities.

Well I'm going to visit some other more exciting blogs now. So off I go!