Well I haven't posted lately. That isn't any news to anyone that might check in on me occasionally. I just wanted to say hi, and let you all in on my stress filled life at the moment.
My step Dad has been in the hospital for the past couple of weeks. Last Wednesday he had triple by-pass surgery against my input. He wanted to have it done though, because the doctors told him there was no other choice. He is a very sick man, and honestly everything that they have done so far has made him worse. He had the by-pass, and as is common was on the ventilator for a day or two. On Friday they had him off the vent, sitting up, and drinking some fluids. My Mom went up to visit that day. She said it was a pretty nice visit. He was talking and complaining about sitting up. When she left, he said that he loved everyone, and to tell us all to continue praying. Well... that night he had a heart attack, followed by him getting CPR, and being put back on life support, and a feeding tube. To skip all the details that I'm still fuzzy about he is now in a coma.
I visited yesterday, along with husband, sister, brother, and Mom. Every time I talked he would make some sort of movement with his eyebrows. I asked yes, and no questions and he would make movements. He also squeezed my sister's hand at one point. The nurse said that it was just reflexes most likely, but there was no way to know for sure. All I know is that I felt special because only my voice brought reaction. When I told him that I loved him his eyebrows went crazy. I know someone is in there, but I don't want him to suffer anymore.
Last night when Pete, and I left the Dr. came in to talk to my Mom about making "The" decision. My little sister isn't dealing with it very well at all. Understandably.
My bio Dad died on the 15th of April 3 years ago, so I think my Mom knew that yesterday was a very touchy day for me. It was.
I have been an old soul from the day I was born, so I know that I have to take on the brunt of the responsibility. I'm ok with that, and so is Pete. I'm just praying that everything goes very smoothly, and quick. My sister was already on the phone this morning talking to my answering machine for a good 10 minutes complaining. She thinks I should have a talk with my Mom on how to be more emotional. Ehhh... I know that everything is going to start to get crazy right now. I have been mentally preparing for it.
If anyone prays out there. Please say a prayer that he isn't feeling any pain right now.
Thanks to all!
Ummm where's my valium again?