I'm still sane... sort of!

I just want Karen to know that I am still plugging away at the Sweet Pea shawl. In fact I am almost done. Thanks for the nudging! LOL The yarn that I used isn't the greatest for this stitch (dtr) so it is taking forever. The yarn is TLC amore, and it sucks to crochet with. Don't sue me big company, just send me some patterns that will work with this yarn. It is pretty but difficult. I think it would be better knitted.

Family is the same. Can't get any help from the assholes that I share DNA with. Just ask me for a kidney you assholes! LOL There has been a lot of fighting lately within my family over the fact that I am doing everything, and the other's are ignoring everything. On top of it is the fact that he has three sons from a previous marriage so that officially makes 6 of us. No kidney is coming out of me. No way! I'm pushing bad luck aside, and officially saying I don't want anything that comes from the DNAs bodies~ Assholes!

On sort of the same note: Mom is feeling much better now. She spoke with Dad's heart Dr. who asked how she was on the phone. She told him about the shingles, and he sent an antibiotic to the house! What a great guy! I'm in love! It is making her much more comfortable, and she is not having any crying jags anymore. Thank God! We actually went shopping the other day, and had so much fun laughing. It was terrific. It made me heart happy. :)

Step Dad on the other hand is trying to kill Mom. I would swear that he is purposely pulling a "feel bad for me act" on her, and anyone willing to listen most of the time. I know he has been very ill, but I noticed that he was very jealous when I was giving my Mom attention when she wasn't feeling well. It was like watching a little kid. I know this happens with age, but she needs attention as well.

I'm done boring you all for now. I know I am starting to get long winded. Going to a BBQ tomorrow. It should be interesting. Hmmm more next time.

I'm having a nervous breakdown!

Ok well... I took Dad (Step Dad) to the Dr. last week, and also for some tests. Thank goodness they are all in the same building. Whew!

The Dr. read his lab work from the visiting nurse, and said that he wanted him in the hospital immediately. I protested that this would take a long time, and I didn't think there was a need when all he needed was some fluids as usual. It takes up to 5 hours to get a bed in our great (rolling eyes) hospital. Anyways the Dr. left the room when Dad said no to getting admitted again. Then he returned, and agreed to let us sit in the office so the treatment could be done there. So we sat for about an hour while he got the fluid IV that he needed, and then we were on our way home. Another whew! I would have been stuck at the hospital with my extremely unsociable Dad for hours. On the way home he wanted to eat deadly food~ Atleast his appetite came back quick.

My mother is another story.

There are three of us kids, in my mother's part of the extended / blended family. With my sister being the shared child of the union. I'm the only one that has been doing anything out of the three. My brother only lives about 1/2 block from me (we don't talk... that's another story), and that is about a mile from their house. My sister moved her selfish ass far enough away so that she would never be on call. She is still only about an hour away. I fought with her during the week about coming down and visiting with them for a day on the weekend. Why do I have to do it all. I know that sounds selfish, but WTF!

My sister was supposed to come down on Sunday, so that I could spend some time with Pete. She left a message on Saturday night that my mother got nasty with her on the phone, and she wasn't going to waste her time. Waste her time?? That is her Daddy!! Like I said WTF??

I don't want to come out like the better person, or shine like a star. I just don't want to go into therapy myself. I've been handeling the late night wants, and needs from ice packs to snacks. I've been doing the grocery shopping. Cat feeding. Garbage disposal. WTF??

Yesterday my daughter went with me to get some groceries for my Mom, after I got reemed out for not being home on Sunday. I got there, and we were chatting with her for about a half an hour, then she shows me these welts / rashes she has on her. My mother thinks she has shingles... Geez couldn't you tell me this shit on the phone?? I practically ran out of the house when she showed me her crotch. Enough is enough!! I need help!!

My husband is fantastic in the support that he gives me, because he knows I am on shakey ground. He listens to all of the shit that I unload on him. I guess that is why he is my best friend. He told me that I should just make sure they are ok by way of phone, and leave the groceries at the door. That's it just leave. When Dad needs to go to the Dr. he can get a cab, till I know what my Mother has.... and no she won't go to a Dr.

I can't jepordize my own health and family as well. Can I? My brother, and sister are leaving this all on me, and it isn't fair at all. My brother I can understand, cause he has three little ones. Wait till I get that little bitch of a sister on the phone though. She is nothing but a spoiled little c..t~ Sorry hate the word, and starting to hate the person attached to it.

Sorry for dumping... if you read the whole thing. I just needed to get it all out.

Happy Friday!

I hope that everyone has a nice weekend! Lots of pools being opened, so lets all be safe... ok?

Gotta take Dad to to the Dr. today. Mom has been pretty sick, and I am trying the best that I can to help them out. The in home / weekly nurse took his blood during the week, and the results didn't look to great. He is really weak, and starting to fall all over the house. He refuses to use his walker, and thus almost fell through the glass coffee table... which should be removed. I'm not sure how I am going to handle taking him to the Dr. by myself, but it has to be done. I don't know why the fuck they make you come in when you are so weak! What happened to home visits??

Hopefully both parents will be ok enough for Pete, and I to be able to sneak away for the day to the beach on Sunday. The way that things look, I'm not so sure. Keeping my fingers crossed cause Pete really needs a break as well. Maybe we'll be nice and bring the kid. She has been working with Daddy all week, and he said she is a terrific house painter, and alot of fun to work with... so maybe we will have someone to hand the business down to in the future. We do gutters & painting if I haven't mentioned it already.

Well I am out of here for now. Going to work on updating the sidebar a little more. I may change the template soon, cause the green is starting to get to me. All depends on how much I get to sneak on here. Can't get online when hubby/Pete is home. He hates computers! Well atleast I have it to myself, so I really shouldn't complain.

Once again as promised I hope to put some pictures up soon. I have a shitload of them on the camera, just have to upload them into the computer is all.

Outta here! Great weekend to all~

Crochet & Gardening!

I'm feeling so much happier now that the sun is struggeling to reappear. The sun feels so good, that I am getting very motivated to do things around the house, and outside.

I am working on the sweetpea shawl still, with the encouragement, and nudging from my friend Karen. It is halfway complete, and is starting to look the way it is supposed to. I just didn't like the way that this starts off so lumpy. I think it is the stitch (dtr). Anyway it will make a nice birthday present for my daughter in July. Also made some of Natalie's econo bags. Very easy, and useful. When I post pictures (I know) you'll see what I mean about them being very useful for anything you carry.

Been doing a lot of garden shopping lately. Now we have to get all of these beauties into the ground in between all the rain.

Ok out of here for now. I'll post more very soon. I know that I am a bad poster!

Monday... Monday!

It was wonderful last weekend. I did talk the hubby into going to my favorite flea market in the world!

It's always a great thing to meet a fellow crafter who is willing to spend some time chatting. I happened across a couple who make these fantastic candle holders. I've seen something similar to what they were selling in magazines, but upon interviewing them I could tell they were the real deal. Always a skeptic I am. He actually blows the glass that hangs into these decorative metal baskets. Very beautiful... I had to buy from these folks because no one was appreciating the handmade items that they were selling. He took time away from his lunch to talk with me, so I said here consider it my treat for the meal.

It really pisses me off that no one appreciates something that is not mass produced! I guess that is the reason that I don't do my stained glass that much anymore. Well actually I haven't cut in a while.

I'm really into crocheting lately, and am working on a few new things. I know that I have to pick up the camera, to actually show some stuff off. I just hate all the editing bullshit that goes along with this.

Step Dad is not in the greatest mood still, but I guess that is to be expected.

I will post more when I feel like I have something interesting to share. Right now I'm going to take a nap with my sweetie cause he came home early today!

Peace out to all~

TGIF

I am soooo glad that Friday is finally here!

Wow I get to cuddle with my hubby Pete for the weekend... well if he doesn't get any urgent calls. We own a painting/gutter business. It's been picking up in the painting area lately which is unusual since it is usually the other way around. He isn't complaining though. As a matter of fact he is hoping for more paint work. I like it because I get to see him more when it rains!

I'm not a Foodie Friday person yet. I just don't like to cook really. I have a lot of recipes, but not sure I want to give away family secrets yet ya know? Hmmm I'll have to think about it though. I mean of course I would give them to my friends, just not the whole friggin blogging community. Next thing I know my fabulous Crumb Cake will be posted everywhere! Next thing I know it will be on the shelves at the local grocery store. Well that would be good, cause then I wouldn't have to make it. Hence no dishes!

I know it isn't like anyone is begging me to join in. I just kinda feel left out. :(

Anyway Dad is home, but not doing well. Today he has to go in and get more blood taken. He just had some taken by the home nurse yesterday, but they are making him huff it over to the office with his walker anyway. Of course my Mom is driving. I didn't mean he was walking all the way. Something about his blood levels is showing that he is dry even though he is filling with water. His feet, and legs are huge. I don't know if the Dr's really know what the fuck they are doing.

I'm trying to clean up the blog a little. If you've been here you'll notice that some links are gone... I'll be posting some new one's as well. If anyone knows how I can make the font in the side bar smaller that would help a great deal, cause the code shit is giving me a headache!

Not much planned for the weekend. Maybe I'll talk Pete into going to the big flea market at Giants Stadium tomorrow. I just love all the stuff I find there... even though I don't need anything... as he always points out when we are there. This time, if we go (hehehe) I'm going to try and lose him for a little while. He always looks at guys shit anyway.

Ok I'm outta here. I solemnly swear to my buds that I will try and post more. I mean I am here all the time anyway answering the phone.

Oh click here if you aren't a self righteous person like this woman apparently is: Donna Lynn's Blog: News from the weekend. If your an asshole you'll agree with her, if not then you are human. Love is love, no matter how you love, and no matter who you love! There will only be one judge on judgment day, and I don't think that hate should work into any sector of the Christian religion. Want to judge? Judge my former religion Roman Catholic~ How do you think God will judge all those priests when they come before the pearly gates?

Donna Lynn, you are truly an asshole!

My blog, my space, my opinion~

Step Dad update!

Well my step-Dad was in the hospital a couple of weeks ago. He had to have a defibrulator put into his chest to help regulate the heart. Afterwards, he found out that he had to carry around a bag with an IV pump in it. The doctor says most likely he will have to carry it for the rest of his life.

He came home feeling really bummed out, and (you know men) very sorry for himself. I really can't blame him, because he is very out going, and this just adds to all of the other complications that he has had with the kidneys etc...

Tuesday night we were once again admitting him into the hospital. Thank God it was a direct admit, and we didn't have to wait for hours in the ER again. His feet were filling with fluid again, and as a result the heart doc felt that this could be the onset for heart failure again.

Yesterday... when visiting I came to find out that his room-mate was an amputee (sp?). 4 times this poor guy had to endure amputations, and he was in such pain. His wife was just the love of his life (you could tell). I had a nice conversation with her, and she told me how this will not effect her husband's mobility in any way. Before this last operation he took a special bus to wherever he needed to go. Dialysis 3 times a week, by himself. He would make sure he visited friends, and joined in with his Mooseclub activities as always. Well ... I wasted no time at all to whisper this to Dad who immediately perked up, and started feeling a little more lucky about life. So he has to carry a bag around. I'm sure we could get him an insulated fanny pack somwhere. Now I just wish he would ease up on my Mom a bit. She is really depressed, and being kinder and more patient than I've ever seen.

*This just in*~~ Just got a phone call from Mom while I was on the computer, that Dad may be coming home tomorrow. Now I just have to keep reminding him how lucky he is!

Today!

I don't know what to title the damn thing!

So how is everyone doing today? Hopefully everyone is in good health, and getting outside. The weather is absolutely beautiful here today, and what did I do... nap... Oh well it was a good nap either way. Now before the husband gets home I have a ton of shit to do. Thank goodness he works late when it is nice out, well when he has a paint job to do anyway.

Last week I had problems with birds being eaten again in my yard. Yes you read right. I like to hang a bird feeder in a little tree, outside of my dining room window. (sounds nice doesn't it? Actually the room is a mess!) Anyways I was having the same problem as last year with ferrel cats going after the doves. It was a really sad thing to find the feathers all over the yard, and it bothered me to the point where I got upset feeding the birds. I mean it was like I was giving the cats the bait. Well last week the same thing happened again. So today I'm laying on the couch being lazy, and napping when I here this weird noise. I said SHIT it's that friggin cat again. Well I run to the side window where two of my cats are perched and looking out the window. I just knew it was going to be a messy fight out there. I peer out as slowly as I can getting ready to bang on the window like a mad woman to scare the cat away (if the bird is ok). What do I see but a big ass turkey strutting and gobbling in my yard under the bird feeder eating the scraps. I was like wait a minute I live in a over populated burb in NJ, and this can't be for real. Now I'm really worried that a cat is going to have a feast with this huge bird, so I call my husband really quick. All the while sneaking out of the house so I can do something with this (for lack of a better word) big bird. My husband was laughing his ass off. After trying to call the bird over he goobled on over to the neighbors yard. Who just happened to be outside. So to be sure I wasn't seeing things I said hey (yeah I'm friendly) did you see that turkey? He was like OMG ... a turkey... a turkey, and then he ran in his house. Real help huh? lol My husband really gave it to me over the phone for not having the batteries in the camera at the time. Rest assured it will be downstairs and ready to go from now on (the procrastinator). I could have sent that to the local newspaper for kicks. Anyway thought I'd share!

They say it's your birthday!!! (Beatles song)

Hi all!
Yes today is my birthday! My wish list is on the side there, so if you want to send me something go on and do it... lol... just kidding... ummm

42 isn't something that really makes me want to jump up, and down, but it is all in the way that you feel & look. I am pretty, so that is something.... lol. Ok you found me in a goofy mood. Why not "they say it's my birthday"!

Sorry I haven't been around all that much the two of you out there that care. :) I love ya's! Been gaming a lot lately, so if you want to play a game look for me in pogo under the name KCatz11. I haven't really been very social lately because in real life I find my self a little overwhelmed of late. I am a bit of a loner to begin with, so even one phone call could push me over the edge... lol Truly, you should ask my family. I get yelled at all the time. My mother knows that it has always been that way, even when I was a child so she doesn't mind all that much. Usually the people closest to me think that I am mad at them. This just isn't the case!

Picked up my hook lately, and started making some bookmarks again. This time I'll save them for Christmas presents. They are getting fancier. My husband is happy to see some of the supplies that lie on the end table in the living room finally going to use. Now if I could just muster up the energy to do the same with my glass supplies in the basement!

I think we are just going out to my favorite local Italian joint for dinner tonight (yummy), and then back to the house for cake. Wish the two of you could be here! :) Thanks for asking about my where abouts, and I promise not to disappear for so long again. Next time pictures!!!

Hey there!

I hope that all the festivities went well, and are going well for everyone. I know just how stressful they can be.

Christmas Eve, went well. We always have it at my house. Other than my mother's usual comments that bring everyone down. It went well.

Christmas day we went to my sister in laws house. It was a mob scene at best. It was a fun day because there was always someone to talk to. Everytime you turned around someone was there. It was very family like, and the day went well.

As you can tell I'm not really into the Christmas holiday season. It just gets me more annoyed than it should. All the worry, and it is over before you know it. Now I am just looking forward to getting the tree down, after New Year Day, and getting on with daily activities.

Well I'm going to visit some other more exciting blogs now. So off I go!

Blah!

Well here comes the big day! I hope that everyone is prepared with their gifts, and menus, and such. Me ... well I just wait till the last minute for everything of course. I'm not sure where I am going or if I will be going to Mom's as usual. She just loves to fuss for us all, and who am I to complain. I really should be taking over the reigns this year, and perhaps I will. I'll get back to you on that one.

Everybody wants a scarf! So my nimble fingers have been mass producing them to the point where I am begging my husband to help out. He is a little intrigued, but still thinks its for women. I have faith that I will be able to get through to him soon, and get those fingers crocheting, and knitting in no time. I'll get back to you on that one as well. LOL

My daughter moved out in May, and took with her, her favorite cat Daphney. Well Daphney happened to be sick (very sick), and eventually a couple of months ago we decided it was best to let her soul go to a better place (the vet helped). I couldn't talk about this because my SP at crochetville would have caught on as to who I was. Any who... an update on that topic is that my daughter was very emotionally depressed going home, and not having anything to care for. Last week she adopted a little boy, and now I have a little grandson. They even let me name him! Chris and her boyfriend couldn't come up with a name, and when I passed my idea by them individually they loved it. So he is now Romeo! Needless to say Romeo is a kitty. As any Grandma I am in love with him completely! He loves to give kisses... thus the name. I will post some Christmas pics ASAP!

I may be a little attached because I also lost one of my babies a few weeks ago. The vet said that she was in the forgone stages of liver damage, and that there was nothing I could do. She was very close to my heart my Ginger, and she was very sweet. The sweetest baby that I had actually. She never bothered anyone, or any other cat. Although they tormented her. Ginger was about 13 years old. The day that she died she was lying next to me on the couch, I knew it was going to happen the night before, but it was as if she waited for me. I can't say that it was easy to watch, but I'm sure glad that I was alone her. She was one of my friends, and always sat on my lap as I typed on the computer. I will miss her dearly. Wow did I cry!

Just a side note: Please people think hard before you get yourself a pet. You really should be ready for all the home damage that they cause, and know that you have to be responsible before you adopt. Its a big job to jump into, and I really do lecture people all the time. Don't do it, if you can't do it for the entire life of the pet. They become family!

Other than that I am back, and sane finally. I think. I'm cleaning, and decorating like the old me of years ago. I'm really getting into the spirit of things. I've lost love, but I will live for others that still need me. I have to learn to go forward. (and no I'm not in therapy... lol)

I'll be reading and catching up on everyone else's blogs tomorrow. I hope there is alot to catch up on.

Bye for now Brats!

I loved you!

Even though I am a hard person to understand, even I have feelings. I don't show them all the time, but I sure do feel them inside. I always feel as if something will go wrong so not much bothers me. To much has gone wrong for me in my life, but today I will not feel sorry for myself. Today my last life line to my father's family is gone to me. A huge family that has never embrassed a child of divorce.

My father's only sibling, my Aunt Pat went before the pearly gates today. I am sure that she got in right away knowing the person that she was. I'm sure that she was pushed to the head of the line. She was one of the most unselfish, non-complaining, sweetest person I have ever yet to meet in my life. She never thought of herself ever. Her only worry was for other's constantly. Her death was very unexpected... no one knew she was ill. It is a great tragedy not to have her with us anymore.

This wonderful woman took care of my father (helping his wife) until the end of his life last year. He battled many cruel years with Lukemia. I don't think that Aunt Pat had much to live for after he left her. She didn't want to be a burden on her children... thinking she would inflict damage upon their marriages. She stayed on with my father's wife, and helped in anyway that she could. I really think that the stress did her in.

To My Dearest Aunt Patty:

I spoke with you a little over a week ago Aunt Pat... but I wish that I could speak to you now. My heart is breaking for the things that I should have said, but didn't. I know that you are in a better place, and that is what is comforting me right now. I will always love you! Thank you for everything that you brought into my life. Thank you for all of the advice that was given. I will think of all of the things you tried to teach me about forgiveness. I can't say that I can do it, but I will try to remember the reasons. Being Irish is sometimes a curse that cannot be broken in terms of stubborness. I know you understand this about me, better than anyone.

Please say hello to Dad for me.

Rest.....

Tagged!

I was tagged by Juli... thanks... lol

The question was what is on your desktop? I wasn't sure what the question meant at first. I thought you meant my actual desk...duh..That is pretty messy, and would be hard to describe. If I had to take a picture I would be horrified!

I looked at Juli's taggers site, since I couldn't get on her site. So I guess you want to see my background picture. I'm not sure if it will show since I am into green everywhere including my blog. Here it is though... it's called "Fall Leaves". Pretty boring huh? At least it fits the season around here. I think I've had it up since last year... maybe it's time for a re-decorating on the desktop.

If they read this I tag: Lynlee, Karen, & Ken!

Happy Halloween!

I hope that everyone eats lots of candy today, and gets fat! lol... only kidding! Have a safe & happy one! Make sure your kids are watched every second if you do decide to let them ring bells. I'm glad my daughter is to old for that stuff. I think 21 is a good cut off age don't you?? LOL

Went to a crafts festival / flea market yesterday with my daughter. It wound up being more on the flea market end of things. Lots of old flea markety junk! The crafts that were there just happened to be prefab stuff that comes in kits, and were wayyy over priced. The other crafts that I saw there were only being looked at for copying value. Nobody really buys somebody else's hard work anymore. Everyone prefers to do it themselves these days. I guess that is why there is such a resurgence for home made goodness... the price tags! Yes we would all love to sell what we love to do, but does it always work out that way?

Just finished some gorgeous scarves over the weekend, and also made my daughter a hat that she scooped up right away. I have to make a mental memo to hide stuff from now on. Then again I get her great discount at the store she works at... so I guess it balances out. I really have to make a mental note to take back Mandee's card from her.

Camera batteries are charging right now. I will take pics of everything including Karen Carter's goodness to me being a SP when I can.

Spammers!!

Please do not click on any links in the comments area that have anything to do with advertisement! I didn't want to have to turn on the stupid word verification thing, but I had to. Pictures will be coming as soon as I can find my rechargeble battery that rolled under the sink. It's yucky and raining today... I'm in a terrible mood, but I am fortunate enough to sit her... so I am lucky. :)

I took the test, and I am a bear. Could I post it no! Don't ask me why but everything else on the page disappeared.

Kids! Ugh!

Young or old, if you give birth to them, or adopt them they are your kids for life. My daughter is 21 years old, and just called me a little while ago for a ride home. Her boyfriend didn't show up for some reason. This meant that I had to move two vehicles in the driveway (not allowed to park on street). One of the vehicles was a big ass Hertz rental truck that my dh had to rent for work.

You can probably figure out what happened... I get there, and there she is with her boyfriend. I just drove by and waived I was sooo pissed. I mean I was very happy that she was safe, but I am a miserable person at around 11pm. Especially in my PJs.

Why?

Ok, everyone, and I mean everyone has terrific pics on their blogs with their projects featured. Why don't I? I am always taking pictures of my Secret Pals gifts, and things. Never am I taking pictures or mentioning my projects. Hmmm.... I have to fix that!

Another thing that I must correct is that Percy is in fact a cat! Now I know that he looks like a tough cat, but he is in no way a dog. Maybe it was just the angle that I took the picture. lol

There isn't to much that I can say because I will give myself away to my SP.

Went to a knitting / crochet fair at my daughter's place of work, and I have to say in all fairness it was really a knitting fair. Even though there were mostly professional knitters there, I saw most people purchasing crochet supplies. Also I can only blame myself because they did want to hire me for the day to do crochet demos. I just didn't think I was good enough. Needless to say I will do it next time, because I am better than no crocheter at all!

I had so much fun either way looking, and touching all the yummy new yarns, and buy them at a decent discount. Although I do get a great discount all the time, this was kinda fun because there were alot of other crazy yarnaholics there as well.

Holla back!

Some pics finally!!

Well here is my favorite little guy again Percy. Becky aka Crazzy Cow made him for me with her own hands. Great work Becky! I'm amazed that someone would take so much time for a pal. Becky was my Summer Secret Pal at Crochetville. She didn't send him to me in the reveal, but did send the instructions to make a whole family of kitties. I figured I'd show him off again.

Becky also was extremely generous with her reveal package (shown below) by sending these great things as well. A doiley, two yummy candles that smell so good I'm getting more online. Some Bernat Bling Bling, beautiful chenille from Lion, a snowflake for my tree, and some great stickers, and quilled ones as well. Also she made me the "Cat in the Hat" holder, which I intend on putting some of my downloaded/ printed WIPs in. Thanks so much Becky!!! She has also given me her friendship in return which is a gift within itself!!! Hugs to you Becky!!!

These are the fantastic bookmarks that I received in the bookmark swap. I hope that everyone liked mine as well. It was my first time working with thread, and now I am hooked (literally).From left to right:

Princesstrish's, Crochetrae's, Diamond's, Crazzycow's, and Ladysource's.

Last but certainly not least is my package from my Autumn Secert Pal. My favorite yarn, an extremely gorgeous, and soft scarf (love the edging that you can't see in my photo), a great candle that I have already used up, and some Popourri. Thank you so much. You have really made my days with your emails, and ecards as well. You are a real sweetie!!!

I would like to take the time to say thank you to all of the courageous fire fighters that lived, and died on 9/11 doing their jobs in the most terrible of conditions. Also I have said a prayer for all of the families that have lost loved ones in that tragedy, that I unfortunately got to witness at a distance. It was a sad day then, as it is now...

It's been a while!

So sorry that I haven't posted in a while! I just haven't been online all that much lately. I've been on here once in a blue moon to visit some sites that I like. As well as downloading some patterns to crochet. Other than that I have been pretty much keeping myself on the downlow~

I really want to thank my autumn secret pal at Crochetville she has been really sweet with all of the ecards, as well as the goodies that she has sent me. As soon as I get off of here I am going to upload the pictures finally. My summer secret pal was Becky, and we are becoming pretty good online friends as well as her being a really generous pal also. I've been really lucky to meet so many nice people at the ville.

Speaking of the ville... it is free to join, and has been written about in articles in magazines such as Interweave knits, and Women's Day Crochet addition recently. It's really exciting to see this once little group turn into such a great place for people to meet, and talk about what they love best.

Of course I can't leave without saying that I have been overly depressed about the situation in Louisiana. My heart is breaking for these broken hearted, and very mistreated people. I now feel that I live in a country that I no longer want to live in anymore. I can't keep my eyes off of CNN. For some reason the unspeakable is hard not to watch. That is probably why I haven't been online much lately either.

I hope that everyone gives in one way or another. My family will be giving to Habitats for Humanity, and I will be looking for the donation trucks in my area as well. I realize that the cost of getting items there is expensive, but there have been generous people in my area that are paying for the trucks so that we can give items. It just makes you feel a little closer than cash. Even though cash is king right now. Just be careful which charitable organization is getting it.

Court appearance over with!

I'm really quite upset still. Lynlee I agree with your comment totally, but you of all people will understand what has infuriated me. I think I would break my own legs if I drove drunk! That definitly wasn't the case.

About a month ago I was pulled over for (really) doing nothing, a police officer in my state can just pull you over for no reason. I honestly don't know how lawful this should be since I didn't do anything wrong. I wasn't driving a box truck that could have bombs in it. I didn't swerve, or forget to use my blinkers. He just felt like stopping me instead of all the other drivers on the road.

I looked like crap because I had just dropped my daughter off at work that morning, and didn't have time for the whole make-up shabang bull, I was even still in my PJs which were sweats. At the time I was headed for the local Burger King for some drive thru breakfast. Low & behold there were the famous flashing lights behind me on an incredibly congested road. I'm not use to this, and I was extremely nervous to say the least.

I knew that I didn't do anything wrong, because I am completely anal about this matter. I'm seriously anal about driving! No kidding! NJ has so many accidents on the road every day that I don't need to be a statistic. I usually just watch the nuts go by, and curse them along... lol

Anyhow I did remember something as I was getting pulled over... my license was expired! I tried to get it renewed twice before it was due to expire, but I didn't have the new documents that NJ requires. NJ implimented a new law this year that makes you prove with a third peice of paper that you are married lawfully to whom you say you are married to. You can't use church documents, or your old marriage license. If you carry your husband's name then beware in the state of NJ because now you need even more documentation of the fact. I feel that this is not protecting my identification because when I did get the certificate of marriage I only had to give my marriage date... not one single peice of ID with it. The only thing I could think of was that the DMV was making sure I wasn't gay! Which really got me pissed to the point where I didn't care if I had it re-newed.

When the officer came to the side of my window I did everything that you normally should do. When I handed him my paper work I openly admitted that my license was expired, and tried to explain the situation. I then asked why I was pulled over, and he said I'll let you know when I get back. He then made me wait in the car for about 15 minutes while he tried to dig up any dirt on his computer in the cruiser. When he came back to the car he told me that I was not a licensed driver in the state of NJ, and that I needed to remove myself from the vehicle and to contact someone to pick me up. At that point I had no cell phone, because I had given it to my daughter. Upon telling him this he told me to park, and that he would drive me to the nearest phone. He dropped me off in my PJs at the nearest diner, and I turned around and asked as I was getting out why he pulled me over. His answer was "Random Stop". What bullcrap!

The very same day I did get everything cleared up. Then I found out at the DMV that I need a new birth certificate. The originals in the town where I was born where forged, and records were stolen (fabulous!). Another thing to waste an entire day on. I can't get it online unless I spend 60 bucks.

So I went to court the other day, and the prosecutor simply laughed as I looked at my husband, and said sir my only crime is being married to this man for the past twenty one years. Why is it that I am being penalized for it now. He said you are forgiven your crime, sign here and go in peace.

I am still pretty pissed that certain officials in my state will marry gay couples, and yet they don't care what the other officials will do to everyone! I think gay couples should marry, why not? I just don't think that other officials that don't like the idea should take it out on every married couple. So now everyone must prove they are not gay, and the married gay couples won't be allowed to drive. Give me a break! Our previous Governor was, and is openly GAY! He actually had to come out of the closet, and resign because of it. Come on people we have to start changing some laws here. We have to start doing some of the speaking, instead of letting these pigheaded officials that we put in office make up our minds on every issue.

Personally I think everyone deserves to live in harmony in whatever fashion they choose, as long as they aren't criminals. Being gay is not a crime! While I am on the court subject... as far as racial profiling in NJ goes... that courtroom didn't have many white people sitting there. I think I was among four out of 70!! The cops know that these people don't live in these towns thats why they are targeted, but that is another story for another time.

Sorry to sound off!